Between You and Me
Here I am, thinking about what to do
Either way I turn is a dead end
On one hand there's all the sh*t you put me through
And on the other--my best friend
I've defended you so many times
You never stopped to see
You've bruised me with your hate crimes
You aimed to torture me

So, what's the difference between me and you
You're human just like me
The only difference between me and you
You won't set me free

So, just walk away, and let me be
I can't carry on this way
I only wish I could make you see
But you are blind to darkness and can't see the day
You took for granted all the times I was there
You shrugged them off without a care
Sill, all you want to do is tell me my faults
You've put me down for the last time

So, what's the difference between me and you
You're human just like me
The only difference is I know the truth
And it will set me free

"No Pity"
Sitting alone in a world of cunfusion
Lost in a web of lies
I stare deeply in this void of illusion
Where no one can hear my cries
Blinded by what I see inside of you
I try to look away
Still, I can't find the voice of truth
Another night fades into day

What the f*ck do you expect
I can't wait for you anymore
To stop hiding behind this fake defect
Pick yourself up off the floor

It's time for you to answer the calling
Stop pretending you're unable
Stop acting like your life is falling
You make yourself fit this label
I can't help you anymore, I can't take it
I can't sit back and watch you die
You've lied to yourself so much you believe it
I can't stand to see you cry

What the f*ck did you expect
There's only so much I could do
You lived behind this fake defect
You've torn our lives into

Better
You think you're better than me
You think you can take me
You think you're better than me
You think you can take me
Then step up

So, you think it's cool for you to talk your trash
You think you're hot sh*t and you're gonna burn my *ss
It's time to think agan b*tch, are you ready
Here's a free lesson and it'll come in handy
Listen up cuz I'm only gonna say it once
You've run your mouth for the last time, your *ss is done
I'm gonna get you, there's no other way
And when I find you, you've got hell to pay

You think you're better than me
I'll play your game and then we'll see
C'mon mother f*cker, I ain't playing around
I'm gonna b*tch slap you and throw you on the ground

So, get up little man and collect yourself
If you stick around I'm gonna put you on the shelf
So, go run home and cry to your mommy
If the b*tch wants some, tell her "If she feels froggie..."
You look real cool getting up from the dirt
Don't give me that eye cuz you'll just get hurt
You've always bragged you could whip my *ss
So, explain to me why you're spitting up grass

Do you still think you're better than me
From the way things look, that's not what it seems
But if you ever feel that way again
You know where you can find me then

You're not better than me (Repeat 8x)
Don't f*ck with me

"I"
I watch my life fall to the ground
I hear my mother bitch and whine
I see my father yell and scream
I watch my sister surviving pain
I see myself going insane
And I can't do a f*cking thing

Don't tell me you're like me
Don't say you know my pain
Because for me it's deeper
It goes straight to my brain

I saw my father walking out
I watched my mother f*cking whore
I see my father happy now
I see my mother fake smile
I hear myself not caring
What the f*ck is wrong with me

Repeat Chorus

Don't think that you're like me
Don't think you know my pain
Because if you do
You're f*cking insane

"Ecsape the Pain"
Know I am the one who wants to be someone else because he does not like who he is
Now do not fuck around with me because I think I've already gotten enough of that from you
I don't know why I try to be nice to you even though I know you don't want me here
Why can I not escape the pain I feel everytime I take a look at your face

I am at the breaking point
I can't take much more
Someone let me out of here
Before I f*cking kill myself
Before I f*cking kill myself
I don't want to kill myself
I might just have to kill myself
Who the f*ck would miss me

Why do I always get confused by all the sh*t that makes perfect f*cking sense to me
Even though I know that my mind can sometimes play some very twisted tricks on me
I do not always try to be such a f*cking jack-ass to everything and everyone
But it's not my fault that over the years your ways have morphed me into this stupid *ss mother f*cker.

Repeat Chorus

I am getting angry now
I wish that I was dying now
Escape the pain
Escape the pain

"Death Star"
Your words explode out of your mouth like a f*cking supernova
But when you're out of things to say I know your little game is over
I'm just here to let you know that I'm not taking it any longer
I'm the death star in your heart and I hope that soon I'll take effect

To kill the dog doesn't stop the way
You know that soon you're gonna have to pay
What's life without a little revenge
What more can I say to make you understand
I don't want your name so why do I have it
I defy you so because I wish you were dead
It's gonna be hard to figure out a way
To wash your blood clean off my hands

Death Star--I wanna get outta here
Death Star--Make me safe from him
Death Star--Take me away from him
Death Star--Kill him before I do

It's not wrong to be full of ultraviolence
Pure aggression is far from how I feel
Hope you get lucky when you spin that life wheel
Cuz if you don't then you're sh*t outta luck
By the way do you think I give a f*ck
This sh*ts going down doesn't matter how
People may say that I'm melodramatic
They're all gonna love my f*cking tactic

Repeat Chorus

"Thoughts"
Thoughts creeping through my mind
I know that I can't hide
From what I feel inside

Why can't they let me be
Why do they mess with me
They will not leave me alone

I always think weird things
I do not understand
You will never know

What it's like to be me
You will never see
What I've had to go through

It haunts me still
I cannot rid it
Cause I know it's real

I can't look past it
There's just no way
For me to forget it

It confuses me now
All of these strange thoughts
I don't know what to do

I cannot forget it
I will not look past it
I cannot forget it
I will not look past it
I cannot forget it
I will not forgive you
I cannot forget it
I will never forgive you

"Falling"
I'm on my knees
They're bleeding
My life away
It's killing me

Falling to the ground
I'm seeing
Death for me
I'm pleading
The end is near

Falling through
Dizzy spells
Naseous, you're on the floor
Falling, falling, falling
Falling, falling, falling
I'm falling apart again
Since the start of the end
Falling, falling, falling apart again

The sky turns black
As I fall on my back
I see the sun fade away
I know that I am
Falling, falling, falling

Falling through
Dizzy spells
Naseous, you're on the floor
Falling, falling, falling
Falling, falling, falling
I'm falling apart again
Since the start of the end
Falling, falling, falling apart again

The sky turns black
As I fall on my back
I see the sun fade away
I know that I am
Falling, falling, falling

I'm falling apart again

"Evil Having Fun"
In the shadows where we play
You can't tell if it's night or day
All I know is you better run
Cause evil's out and we're having fun
No matter what it takes
Whatever we have to do
We're out for one thing
And it's to get you

We're gonna play with you
We're gonna toy with you
We're gonna f*ck with you
Whatever we have to do

We're gonna bring you to your knees
Don't try to get out by saying please
Once you're caught you're in for it
I'm gonna put you through a lot of f*cking sh*t
We're gonna bring you to your knees
Don't try to get out by saying please
Once you're caught you're in for it
I'm gonna put you through a lot of f*cking sh*t

We're gonna play with you
We're gonna toy with you
We're gonna f*ck with you
Whatever we have to do

The end is near
But have no fear
We're gonna get out
That's what we're all about

Come with me, let me show you something
When you see you're gonna want to flee
Because it's evil in every single way
The ride is free, you don't have to pay
The end is near
But have no fear
We're gonna get out
That's what we're all about

"Watch Me Bleed"
I am now reaping what you have sowed
And you have sown the seeds of disgust
Please don't be angry with me if
Towards you my mind is filled with hateful lust

Hold my hand
Watch me Bleed
From my eyes
Wherever I please
I can't help
The way I feel
All I want
To do is kill

Kill, kill, kill, kill, kill, kill, kill, kill

How does it feel to be lagging behind
You tell me you miss me but I know you're lying
I know that you never wanted to be
A father to a dumb f*ck just like me

Will you kill me if I'm not already dead
I wisk that I were dead instead
Of having to live in this world with you
You have no idea how much I hate you

I used to be a little boy
Now I've grown into this thing
What am I, I don't know
I'm something I can't explain

Look at me
What do you see
Tell me now
I want to know
Open your heart
I don't want in
Open your eyes
And watch me bleed

"Disguise"
Your soul that lies within
A realm of hateful sin
You try but cannot hide
All that dwells inside

I look into your eyes
I see all your lies
You cannot disguise
What I see inside

Disguise (You try to hide it but I can still see)
Disguise (What the hell are you trying to be)
Disguise (Can't you see what you're doing to me)
Disguise (You're just a freak who wants to be free)

You always try to be
What you will never be
Just open your eyes and see
That you will never be...free

Disguise (Don't disguise it, I can see)
Disguise (Don't you think you're good enough for me)
Disguise (Why the f*ck do you try to be me)
Disguise (You're just a freak who will never be free)

"Dred"
You envy, for all the wrong reasons
You hate, without any meanings
What's wrong , do you feel a bit shallow
You know, to me you're callow

Don't look so surprised
I see the wrong in your eyes
To late I feel it, you dred so
You steal it away from everyone

Dred , the laughter and the pain
This is driving me insane
Dred, kill
Dred, kill
Dred

"Beginnings"
Thinking, crying
Trying to ease the hurt
Kicking, screaming
Looking at the past
When it was good
Leaving behind the pain
I know I could not

Why did it happen, tell me
I take all the blame
And whenever the ask me, you both
Put me to shame, why

I'm out of tears
I'm out of hope
I'm out of pain
I'm out of love for anyone
I hope you see me and fall apart

"Hate Me"
You say that we're friends
Then you stabbed me in the back
You tell me the truth
But its all still a lie
Instead of me living
You wish that I would die
What's wrong with me, what's wrong with you
Just say it, say it, say it

Hate me, Hate me
Say it, say it, say it

Now i'm on my back
So you take control
Feeding off my mind
This is getting old
I'm growing tired and weary
My eyes--dry, dreary

So say it, say it, say it

Hate me, Hate me
Say it, say it, say it

"Choice"
Choice of life
Choice of state
Choice of mind
Choice of fate

You can't decide what's right or wrong
Your choice is gone

Lost...lost your voice
Like your own thoughts
It's killing you inside

Lost...lost your pride
You've lost your mind
Pride and mind

You're boundless
You're hopeless
You're lifeless because
Your choice is gone

Away with freedom of speech
F*ck that
Here's a lesson I'm gonna teach
For all these people who are over-ruled

You're boundless
You're hopeless
You're lifeless because
Your choice is gone
You're boundless
You're hopeless
You're lifeless because
Your choice is gone

_{Copyright 2000 Disillusioned c/o Death-Star Records}